Thanks to the astronomicality of health insurance premiums in my fair state, I periodically browse the school and library job listings. It goes something like this: I write the giant check to Anthem, think to myself, "this is really not going to work, I won't ever have enough clients for this to work," and then I hit the two sites that list jobs the aforementioned fields. There aren't any openings that I can stomach/am qualified for/wouldn't interfere with sessions with current lients I really like, so I go back to working on the new website or answering email or looking for cool tote bags to carry my picture books around in.
Thing is, if I make it through another month of working for myself as a tutor/consultant/coach thing, I will have been at it for longer than I have stayed at anything else yet. It occurred to me a couple of months ago that it might be worth sticking with it just one more year, or even half-year, just to find out what it's like to be doing something for more than two years.
This afternoon I met with a tutor I found on craigslist. I get on there and look around every once in a while because I need people to refer the younger kiddos to. I realized in talking with this woman that it might actually be really cool to have someone to work with, particularly if, as in this case, the person had a lot of skills and training that I don't. It's hard for me to imagine that I might actually dip my toes into the world of employing (even if at first it's actually outsourcing), but I can't help thinking this might have been one of the things I was supposed to see, that couldn't come until I took a few more strides into my third year.